Blushing Phoenix
Blushing Phoenix is where vulnerability meets power — and shame becomes your turning point.
Hosted by April Poynter, this podcast and YouTube channel exists at the intersection of deep sensitivity and unshakable strength.
It was born from April’s own journey with chronic blushing and erythrophobia (the fear of turning red in front of others), a physical response that once felt like a curse, but became the gateway to healing, growth, and radical self-trust.
The blush symbolizes the quiet pain of self-betrayal - the years spent hiding, people-pleasing, and shrinking in relationships, work, and identity.
The phoenix represents what happens when you stop running from yourself and begin to rise - bolder, freer, louder, and more aligned.
Blushing Phoenix is for the woman who feels everything deeply, who has silenced herself to fit in, and who is now ready to live louder without abandoning her softness.
Through raw stories, spiritual insights, and real conversations, April guides you to reclaim your voice, reconnect with your body, and rise from the ashes of who you were told to be.
Alchemize fear into fire.
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Blushing Phoenix
What Got You Here - Won't Get You There
Sometimes the resistance we feel isn’t about the circumstances around us – it’s about the version of ourselves we’re still living from.
In this video, I share how I realized that parts of me – 8-year-old April, 35-year-old April – were still trying to protect me. Their intentions were good, but their rules and fears were actually keeping me stuck. By recognizing and lovingly releasing those old versions, I’m learning to step fully into who I am now at 40.
The truth is, what got us here won’t get us there.
To step into the life we desire, we have to become someone new.
Receive. Release. Become.
If you’ve ever felt like you keep hitting the same wall no matter how hard you try to change – this message is for you.