Blushing Phoenix
Blushing Phoenix is where vulnerability meets power — and shame becomes your turning point.
Hosted by April Poynter, this podcast and YouTube channel exists at the intersection of deep sensitivity and unshakable strength.
It was born from April’s own journey with chronic blushing and erythrophobia — a physical response that once felt like a curse, but became the gateway to healing, growth, and radical self-trust.
The blush symbolizes the quiet pain of self-betrayal — the years spent hiding, people-pleasing, and shrinking in relationships, work, and identity.
The phoenix represents what happens when you stop running from yourself and begin to rise — bolder, freer, louder, and more aligned.
Blushing Phoenix is for the women who feel everything deeply, who’ve silenced themselves to fit in, and who are ready to live louder without abandoning their softness.
Through raw stories, spiritual insights, and real conversations, April guides you to reclaim your voice, reconnect with your body, and rise from the ashes of who you were told to be — into the fire of who you really are.
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Blushing Phoenix
When It All Comes Crashing Down: Noelle Dawson on Affairs, Adoption, and Reclaiming Her Story - Part 2
In Part 2, we go deeper. Much deeper.
This episode is raw, honest, and incredibly human. Noelle shares the truth about the affair—what she was chasing, the fantasy it created, and the reality it destroyed. We talk about the guilt, the counseling, and the unraveling of a marriage she desperately tried to save.
But this is also a story of rebuilding.
Noelle opens up about:
Her adoption and infertility journey
Going from zero to four children
The complexities of parenting children with early trauma
The shame she still carries as a mother
How trauma rewrites our nervous system—and how she's learning to rewire her own
Her decision to not live as a victim of her past
And the moment she chose forgiveness over bitterness—especially with her father
This isn’t a story wrapped in a bow. It’s a story still unfolding.
If you’ve ever felt like your mistakes disqualified you from healing, from motherhood, from leadership, from love—this episode is for you.
Because what matters most isn’t perfection.
It’s ownership.
And Noelle is showing us what that really looks like.
Catch Part 1 to hear how it all began, if you missed it.
Find out more about Noelle here: www.instagram.com/@transforming_noelle